La Musique

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

i initially wanted to post a happy post today but something really disturbing has happened. and it totally ruined my mood.

its really amusing how some people appear to be ur friend on the surface and the next moment, they're gossipping behind your back. i find them really contradictary, not to mention interesting, no? and the fact that you thought they were your friend just hurts more. at least if he/she were ur enemy, then it'd not be too much of a surprise. but word gets around, and such things still do happen.

and then u feel disappointment. you try to ignore it, but you just cant seem to do so. so i guess what you think about urself never really matters, cos at the end of the day, what others think of you is still more important. people give in to rumours too easily, especially if they don't know that person personally.

you feel like crying, but you can't control your tears. they just flow outta ur eye sockets like nobody's fking business. and then you think, why am i crying/tearing for them? they aren't even worth my tears. they are just fking bastards who din treasure friendship, no?

i'd sincerely like to be their students you know. if this ever happened to me, i'd want to learn how to hurt them like they did. i know it's all devil-ish and childish and immature but HEY WHATEVER OKAY? not like im immune to pain and hurt. im a living being. i still have emotions.

i wonder when the world will be rid of such bitches. i guess never.

1:42 PM